Does It Matter/Will It Make You Not Like Me--What Does 'I Support' Mean Series--How I Decide What To Put On My Blog

I Support.

These are Powerful Words. They can Lift Up--& They can Destroy.

They can bring Revolution--& They can bring Resolution.

What do I Support?

Freedom. Basic Human Rights. Compassion for the Weak--This makes me a Liberal.

Accountability. Earning Privalages. Swift Punishment for the Abuser--This makes me a Conservative.

I grew up in circumstances that may seem different than many--But are the same as many around me--& Yet I came to very different conclusions than so many of the ppl I grew up with.

I've seen one Generation before me live through being a POW--& 2 Generations before me live through the Holucaust--Neither because of their Religious or Political Beliefs--But because they believed in Freedom.

I've seen the Next Generation live through a Hell I could never imagine--For no damn good reason...But not only live through it--They manage to give me the Hope that this Place is filled with more than shit--It's also filled with Miracles too.

I've battled my own Consious-- My own Genetics--& My own Personal Demons....

And came to the convolution that Life Is Too Short To Be Afraid.

You look in my eyes these last few yrs--& you'll see a different person than before. That cold-dead-eyed-stare...Maybe my own personal version of that 1000 Yd Stare I already know so well... Is what you will probably see now--Mixed with Genuine Hope. Because I know now--How hard it is to come by.

What do I Stand For? What Do I Believe?

Hope. Doing Good Things With What You're Given. Success Is What You Say It Is. Never Giving Up...Saying Screw You, If You Don't Like The Way My Life Looks To You...& Really Mean It.

What Do I Support?

I don't know if it really matters.

As long as we are Going The Same Way--Does it really matter How We Get There?

Thinking Of You--AZ Rains Series--These People In My Mind--A Paranormal/Historical/Sci-Fi/Romance/Hope&Survivors Series

Time doesnt exist here.

It's only a passing phase

A shimmer of something

That feels real

Only when you're away.

When I'm away from here.

Rain.

It slows down time.

Cuts me off from you

Brings you closer every time.

How do you 

Do that to me.

Slow my mind

Altered states of consciousness

Where only you seem to roam.

Sights & sounds

Smells

Your touch.

They combine 

& create an a higher state of being

Above this place.

They say 

As you meditate

A euphoria comes over you.

Plains

Streams of counciousness

Open up 

& take you away.

And I sit here 

On this bench again

Knowing it's true.

Because all I have to do

Is reach my mind out to yours

& you take me 

Where you already are.

Where it never shines

Where it always rains.

Where you find my mind

Clinging to yours.

Where you touch me

& I sigh just thinking of you.

Wolf At My Door--AZ Rains Series--Angels,Guardians,&Soul Mates

Feathers outside my window

A Wolf at my door.

This is how I think of you.

Rain pours outside

And somehow all I can think about is you.

I run down stairs

When everyone's asleep.

Hopeing to once again 

Not make it in time to see you.

What scares me more

When you won't leave me

Or when you disappear.

Thunder over head

Electricity in my feet.

I stand in these puddles

And think of you.

Of how your charge 

Makes my body feel.

Signs of you

All around me.

Your breath in my ear

Your voice in my head.

Touch 

Like a sweet 

Painful song

Against my skin.

You're here now

I seem to say.

I wait 

Need

Desperate

To hear myself say it.

To see your face

Tell me it's real.

Creasote on my skin

In my lungs.

Your breath joins with mine.

On the storms 

Is how you seem to come.

In the force

Chaos

Is where I crave  you.

Stand with me you say
You won't let me go
Won't let me be free.
But we both know
Both know the truth.

Neither of us wants to be set free.

Visits From You--AZ Rains Series--Angels, Guardians, & Soul Mates

He visits me in the rain.

His hands close to mine.

His breath close

His mouth comes closer.

The sun rarely shines

When he's around.

Or so it seems.

Maybe I just like to

Think of him this way.

Water pouring around my feet

Pounding into the ground.

It's deafening

And I can still only hear you.

A cool breeze past my face

The only reprieve of the day

Air not electrified by closterphobic energy

Heat so tight

Wrapped around your chest

You're desperate just breath.

But this heat

This electric energy is different.

This electic current

You send through my brain

I cant stop thinking of you.

Surround me like you do.

Reach out to me.

Beyond this Place

Beyond your Time.

Join me here

Or take me with you.

I don't want us to end.

The storms will bring you again

I know.

And you know I'll be waiting here for you.

Like I always do.

Universal Truths--What I Learned--Where My Blog Has Been--Blogs/Recovery/Hope&Survivors--What I've Discovered As I've Traveled Around The World On My Blog

I wanted to say a big Thanks to everyone who's been a part of this Blog Jourey with me.

My Blog has reached out to ppl across the world--Literally....

I check my Stats once in awhile--Curious to see who's out there--& An attempt to learn & understand how the other end of Shareing Your Art works--The communicating it to ppl beyond the page--Setting it free & letting it reach across lands & oceans, to ppl I won't meet in person, but who now know me in Spirit.

And I've discovered, that my words have been to the US, Canada, Brazil, the UK, Ireland, Several Countries in Western & Eastern Europe, Slovakia, Ukraine, Russia, the Middle East, India, South Africa, Malaysia, New Zealand, Australia, Japan, Indonesia, China, & Singapore.

I couldn't be more Amazed--Proud--Or Excited...

This is my Life--My Family--My Stuggles, Pain, Joys, Grief, Appreciation...Trimphs & Hopes.

You've been invited into a World--'My World...Sureal...& Amazing' as one new Friend put it....& I feel better for it.

Knowing I could write these things--Be honest with myself--Speak these sometimes Darker Places out loud...& Then allow myself the opportunity to see the Light...& See the Light through fresh eyes...Yours.

And I've discovered an amazing Truth--This, all these things, these Moments--Really are Universal--Really do matter--Really do have the power of Magic.

It's All In How You See It...This Too Shall Pass...One Step At A Time, One Day At A Time. 

Curse--Swear--Scream...Blame & vent & even hate for awhile...

The let yourself Breath...Look around you...& Say...It's Only One Day, Today Was Shit?, So What, That Only Means That Tomorrow It Can Get Better.

These are Universal Truths...And I think it's Beautiful.

And I'm glad I could be a part of those Moments with you.

(Mon. March 19, 208--I will update, the Places my Blog has been read in, once in awhile. I've haven't updated it in a long time, so I'm sure I've missed adding several Locations by now. So--Don't worry, or feel left out of the loop, if where you are, isn't mentioned here. I WILL add it soon. In fact, IF YOU WOULD LIKE ME TO ADD WHERE YOU ARE READING THIS RIGHT NOW--LET ME KNOW! Leave a comment under this Post, & I'll add you ASAP. :D )

Only You--Mystical&Sacred/Musicians&Writers Series

The way you move me

The way you touch me

Lyrical

Transcendent.

The way you move inside me

The way you touch a piece of my Soul

Musical

Surreal.

The way you move the Universe around me

The way you touch the core of it

Magical

Spiritual.

The way only you can do.

I Guess--R(You Know Why)--Recovery/Hope&Survivors Series

I guess I can make it seem easy

Like have some answers

But I really don't.

I guess I do

The ones I've always known

But man, the ones I don't

Just seem to be close

Then run father the closer I get.

I guess I could tell you why

Why I know what I do

Think it matter

But maybe it won't.

I guess you may care

See this pain

Want to carry a share

But I probably wouldn't let you

I just don't know how

But sometimes

I so wish I could.

I guess it's not easy

Being you either

But when I look at you

I think man, how do they not know

Not know how incredible they are

Who ever told them otherwise

It was bull shit

It was a lie.

I guess that lie holds you

The one in your head

Maybe you told yourself

May I did without meaning to

Maybe it was some asshole kid

Whe you were young & his words 

Still feel true.

I guess I can keep trying

To tell you something new

Hope these new words will

Erase all that old shit in your head

Make a pretty new picture of you.

I guess that's up to you

But I tell you what

I'll always believe

I'll always see something pretty

When I look at you.

In My Dreams--These People In My Mind--Mystical&Sacred Series--Angels,Guardians,&Soul Mates

I sit here & visit this place

With you here in front of me once again.

Your voice in my head

& yet I wonder sometimes

Why I think I've ever heard you speak.

Your face 

A vague

& perfect thing

Soft to my touch

Against my skin.

In the dark

In the shadows

You're there

My man

The one I've always seen

In my dreams.

Your touch

Your hands on me

Breath so close

You lean over

& I sense you whisper

Something in my ear.

I feel it in my mind

Not heard but felt

Cascading across me

Like the tides

Pulling me to you.

You're always gentle

You would think that would scare me

Your tenderness

Comfort

Patience.

A sigh deep in me

Pushes out of my chest

How do you do this to me

Know me

Know what to say

When you don't even speak to me.

I don't care

I've always known you

Seen you

Had you come to me

Comfort me

Make me crazy

The way you know me.

But that's ok

Come to me anyway

Come to me tonight.

Hold me the way you always do

Tell me it will be ok

Let me forget my fear 

Even if it's always in my dreams.

Fly--R(You Know Why)--Recovery/Hope&Survivors Series--Warriors--Dragons

My Little One

My Hatcling.

This is what I bring you

What I leave with you

When I'm not here.

Me.

My claws I hold you with

Are too sharp sometimes.

My fire I breath to keep you warm

To protect you 

Sometimes comes to close

I never mean to singe.

My tough skin

Is rough I know

And I am hard to hold onto.

But it doesn't mean

I would ever let you go.

I don't always see how
You struggle to fly
As I fly above you.
I say someone must fly Point
But don't realize
That someone must also turn around
And make sure the ones I guide
Haven't fallen behind.

As I struggle to carry you some days
You have already struggled
To carry yourself through the storm.
All you ask for is to not fly it alone.
To be held up
For a little while
Until you can fly on your own again.

I have flown alone for so long now
It's hard to see
Any other way.
I fly sometimes with you
But because of how I am
What I've become
I can't always be beside you
Like I sometimes wish I could.

It's not you I say
But it must feel a different way.
It's a feeling I've known well
And never wished it for you to know.

All I can tell you
Is what I can
What I've learned
What I know now.

That I love you
That these claws are what I am.
But in this Heart
I'm a better Spirit.
One who soars high above
These storms with you.
Proud to be at your side.
Honored to to be your guide.
Would give anything to protect you.

Even give these tiny pieces of me
That I barely know myself.
These parts of me
That are good
Fresh
Untouched
Unjaded by time.

I have Hope
That this is enough.

As you fly with me
I will keep you safe.

You've allowed me to be whole.

Spiritual High--Press Play/Mystical&Sacred/Musicians&Writers Series

My breath comes fast

And comes so slow.

The smile I can feel

Comes across my face

My eyes drift close.

My heart pounds in my chest

To the beat of you.

And your rythem 

Plays across me

Through my skin

And all I feel is you.

The tempature rises

I feel the heat in my chest

And flow through to my toes.

The end comes near

I can feel it rise inside me

So good.

So slow.

And then you're there

That last beat

Those last few notes
Flow through me.
A Spiritual High
I experience with no other.
Close to tears.
I breath that great sigh of relief.
And all can think about
Is how I can reach out to you
And press play
So you can take me there again.