Taylor Swift - Shake It Off -- To My Hopeful Survivors----Strong Is Beautiful Too

It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia with Jimmi Simpson--Because He's Adorable--Wonderfully Strange--& So Perfectly Comfortable With It All--For You My Hopeful Survivors

CeeLo Green - F---- YOU (Official Video)--RATED PG13 / R--DUE TO LANGUAGE--To Those Who Need A Few Swear Worlds To Tell The World You're A Hopeful Survivor--This Is For Us

My Heroes--Warriors Of Recovery--Part 5--Mental Illness--Addiction--Recovery--Special Needs--Disabilities--Who I Live This Lifeg For--& The Reason They Keep Me Sane While I'm Off--&--On My Blog

Permanent.

To be without change

without difference

constant

never ending.

I wrote this in Aug...

and so it goes 

that all things MUST change.

for it's the only constant

the only 

hope

the only piece 

of what we have 

to offer

that stays ever

true.

Us. 

We.

We are the constant

the edge the change

shall ride upon

the winds that rage 

& rip through us

that can never truly

diminish what we've 

become.

I sit here

a different person

for sure.

Weaker in many

respects.

And I proudly say

stronger in 

others.

And 

I even proudly tell you

that my weakness

my courage 

in it

is who I am

who I have become.

Because 

this fragile life 

around us

so delicately draped 

is an armor

a shield

a protective cover

of night

that 

not even the harshest

lights

can destroy.

It's a path

a walkway

a stone 

pebble covered

village 

country stroll.

A quiet stream

leading to the ever

bigger sea

one we will someday all 

be

together.

But for now

these Warriors

who walk beside me

who walk MY path now

who no longer 

simply walk behind

but

lead the way

they guide me

as I guide them.

They walk point

when I should have

done it for them

They clear the path ahead

&

give me the all clear

that its safe

that they have 

cleared the way.

These Warriors 

who walked in front 

for so long

who still take the lead

when they are called.

These 

newest ones

these Warriors

in the 

making

before my eyes

have become more than I ever dreamed.

They have morphed into
a graceful
powerful machine
capable
confident
sure
in part
I know
because of who
they've always
had to
be
long before
this particular
tour
began.

I know
this world
will now be
in good hands
because the fires
of hell can
forge a weapon
of steel
that can't
be bent
&
it can
destroy
what ever good
that was left.

But it's the Warriors
the ones that walk
through the flames
&
reach for you
THESE
are
My Heroes
Warriors
Of
Recovery.

The Calling - Adrienne (E-coustic Session)--I Love His "Tonight" Video--& His Stuff In General--What I Do When I'm Not On My Blog

Santana and Rob Thomas Perform Smooth Live--What I Listen To At Home & In The Car(& Live When Rob Thomas Played Here In Phx Summer 2014)When I'm Not On My Blog

We saw Rob Thomas live here in Phx AZ this summer--Perfect in every way. An almost Spiritual Experience. #Blessed I'll post some pics soon here on my Blog--Always like to share what our world looks like with you.

Lyle The Intern - 2008.06.26.avi - Where You'll Find Me When I'm Not On My Blog

Enjoying The Rain--How I Live Life As A Hopeful Survivor When I Am Off--&--On My Blog

As many know--I deal with a well organized storm of chaos many days--& Nights.

Many times here at 2-3 in the morning--Never quite making it to bed.

That is the Real Life me--A never stopping storm chaser--Always looking--Almost waiting--In hopes of another successful attempt to harness the wild that lives around me--Maybe knowing I may never really harness it inside.

And so--This is when you will see me, most nights--Or very early days--Depending on how you choose to calculate the value of day & star light.

In front of you--In my Virtual Life--Sorting through what's left of a tornado of who & what I am--What I've learned--Who I'm grateful to bring with me through one more storm.

My Offline Life has taken unexpected turns--Like a freaky CGI stunt--Cascading across the sky--The screen too dull to show you the colors that are really there--Seemingly painting the sky black.

But I sit here--The roads & paths uncertain--In many ways more than I imagined--In some a blessed silver lining in a sky I hardly recognize anymore--& This too gives me hope.

Because this is what you will see the most of here--Hope. Freedom from our own perceived losses. The balls to keep standing--Even when our bodies won't let us--& Our Souls have nearly given up--& Our minds so far gone we can't imagine a life any other way.

We--My Off Line world--The ones I live with--Live for--Live through--We are simply examples of that in it's purest form....That it's just plain old not giving up--This is the key--The one that open the doors to safety--As you run screaming from the howling winds of change--This really is all courage looks like--Simply not giving up.

So yes--You will see me in my Virtual Life with you--Basking in the blistering rain--Soaked in the life around me--Holding close to me who I really am--The skies roaring it's newest last warning--As I stand in it all--Face to the sky--& I tell you how beautiful it all is.

Because--For me--This is how I survive it--The floods--& The storms that rattle my rib cage--Excitement in my gut--Not fear--But simply the will to keep walking on--Because that's all this life we share really is--A downpour from above--Trying to learn to swim--& If we're lucky--We'll discover water wings to help us float until then.

So I figure if I'm going to get wet eventually anyway--I might as well enjoy the rain.

Matchbox Twenty - Push - What I Listen To When I'm Not On My Blog

(Keep Them Cones A Rollin)Hide!Run!Hide!--PART 3

MOVE EM ON

(HEAD EM UP!)

CUT EM OUT

(RIDE EM IN!)

ROLLIN ROLLIN ROLLIN

BARK!

(CONE DROPS & CRACKS)

NO MORE

HIDE!RUN!HIDE!

(Keep Them Cones A Rollin)Hide!Run!Hide!--PART 2

KEEP MOVIN, MOVIN, MOVIN

THO THE VET'S A DISAPPROVIN 

KEEP THEM CONES A MOVIN

HIDE!RUN!HIDE!

DON'T TRY TO UNDERSTAND EM
JUST CHASE & SPIN & TRIP EM
SOON WE'LL BE DRIVIN CITY WIDE

MY HEARTS CALCULATIN
MY HUMOM WILL BE WAITIN
WAITING AT THE END OF THIS
CRAZY RIDE

MOVE EM ON
(HEAD EM UP!)

CUT EM OUT
(RIDE EM IN!)

BARK!
(CONE DROPS & CRACKS)

(Keep Them Cones A Rollin)Hide!Run!Hide!--PART 1--Based On "Rawhide"--& My Cover "Fake Rawhide Chew Toys"--For J(You Know Why)

ROLLIN ROLLIN ROLLIN

HIDE!RUN!HIDE!

ROLLIN ROLLIN ROLLIN
KEEP THAT VET A STROLLIN
KEEP THAT CONE A ROLLIN
HIDE!RUN!HIDE!

RAIN BOOTIES & WIND BREAKERS & WINTER WEATHER
TRYIN TO BREAK FREE FROM THIS TETHER
WISHING THAT MY HUMOM WAS BY MY SIDE

ALL MY STUFF I'M MISSING
DOG TREATS, SNUGGLES, & NO CATS A HISSIN
ARE WAITING AT THE END OF
MY CAR RIDE

MOVE EM ON
(HEAD EM UP!)
HIDE!RUN!HIDE!