Thursday, October 12, 2017

Mine--Part 1--AZ Rains Series

The hold He has on me. The platform He preaches His ministry to my Soul. The measure of Time.

These were given to me in doses, in carefully rationed tornadoes of thoughts, tastes, & sounds. Staying with me, dripping into my skin, like a controlled substance, dangled over me, I reach for more.

His smell at night, as He changes from who I see, & what he wants me to be. Does He care? That I rest here, never knowing what, & who He'll be tonight. Does He know my smell, my scent, as I descend from this place, to where I really want to be.

The breezes in my mind, they create a vortex, a whirlwind, measured on the scale of grief & pain, joys & victories. Where the newest dose of me, is slowly transfused into my veins, the life that was Him, is now mine.


Sunday, September 3, 2017

You & Me--AZ Rains Series

Your smell,
in this rain.
I feel it 
touch 
me,
in a way
only 
my memories
will.

Your picture,
upon 
my 
table,
the one
keep 
in 
my room.

This is 
still 
how I see 
you.
I believe 
now,
I always 
will.

And why
shouldn't it be.
I ask 
myself this,
as I always do.
Down
these halls,
of
the rooms
that hold
every 
hint
of 
you.

It's here
now,
your smell,
your
scent that
escapes my mind
some days.
That
plays outside
of the 
confinds
of 
me.

The sun
keeps
disturbing
my
peace.
cruel extension
of 
this place,
when 
you're not 
here.

At night,
this is
when I can 
see you
most.
When I look
out my window,
the balcony 
doors
calling to me,
like they 
always 
do.
When you wait for me
outside,
the way
you 
do. 

The path,
that 
takes me
to you.
Why does it
always 
seem it's such
long
& winding
road.
When you are
always
there,
just beyond
my 
reach.

Oh but
tonight you say,
will be
no different.
It will 
bring me
to 
you,
as I always
do.
My mind
playing tricks,
letting 
me
imagine
this walk into
your 
Soul,
will be 
different somehow.

But it
shall be as
it always
will 
be.
Your arms
wrapped 
around me,
you mouth 
next 
to mine.

The scent 
of 
the nights
I live 
for,
stuck in
my 
head.
Your face
so 
close.
Those eyes 
that light
the desesert
sky.

Don't wait
so 
long 
say,
until 
I see you 
again.
And you 
tell
me again,
what 
you always
do.

That you 
are 
always
there,
waiting 
outside my 
door.
Watching,
waiting 
for me
there.

A shadow
I see
in 
the corner
of my
eye.
The movement
of the 
Wolf 
outside my
windows.
The 
feathers
of the 
Crows I hold
in my
hands,
so 
dear.

That you
will never leave
me 
alone,
you say.
You exist
because 
I do.
And 
as I breath
you,
to sustain 
my own 
life,
I keep 
you alive 
too.

To be
what we 
are,
is magic
you 
see.
Eternally,
you,
&
 me. 

Always Be--Black Series

Sunset 
comes once 
again.
It's frail
delicate 
hand
on 
my cheek.

Sunlight
against an
ever
changing sky.
Its
face
reflecting me.

Nighttime
is all
crave tho.
Shadows
along
my walls.

Reminders
of what
is
to become.
You
and 
me
finally alone.

Foretold
are these
memories.
Of
who
I'll
always be. 

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

To Me-AZ Rains Series

This night,
You find me
Here, 
Again.

The dust,
Rolls off my
Feet,
As I look
Around 
Me.

Your eyes,
They always
Find 
Me, 
Testament,
To 
Why I 
Stay 
Here.

The rain,
Always 
Is,
As it
Should 
Be,
A pulse
In my 
Chest.

That look,
The one
That
Brings me
Down 
Here,
From 
My balcony
Crawl.

Oh, but
Others,
Hmmm,
They wouldnt
See it 
This way,
Would they,
This 
Desperation
Seek.

But you,
You
See this
Place 
As I 
Do, 
The one
Place
In time,
I will
Always
Find
You. 

Where I
Was 
Always 
Meant 
To
Be,
Your
Testament
To
Me.


Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Anything But You--AZ Rains Series

His arms around 
Me,
In silence.
A sound 
Only 
Hear.

The echoes 
Below me,
I hear in 
My dreams.

A feather
Left on my
Door step,
A reminder
Of
You.

The howling
At my feet,
The call 
Of 
The
Wind.

I wait 
Outside
For 
You,
&
You lead me
There.

Puddles 
Escape my
Toes,
Rain 
Pours around 
Me.

The sounds
Of your
Voice,
In my ear,
Rings
In my
Head.

I don't breath
Without 
You,
You tell
Me.

I can't
Remember
Anything,
But
You.

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

To You--Angels, Guardians, & Soul Mates Series

The 
Crimson 
Tides,
Upon this
Shore.
You live
Here,
My 
Past.

Your 
Feet,
Upon my 
Sands.
Feel you
Here,
Walking thru
My 
Memories.

Distant 
Roar,
A hurricane 
Sounds.
Sirins blare,
A song
That brings
Me
From
My 
Myself.

Gladly
Stay,
Far from
Where  I
Should 
Be.
Off
The beaten
Path,
They say.
But 
All my
Roads,
Always lead
To
You.

Monday, May 1, 2017

My Angel--Angels, Guardians, & Soul Mates Series

Home,
Is where your 
Voice
Brings me.

The Gentle 
Vibrations,
Against my ribs,
They 
Rumble
Ache 
Still.
A feeling
I crave
To
Relive,
Again,
&
Again,
&
Again.

The Chocking
Sound,
In his 
Throat,
As he 
Walks away.
I remember
this
Still,
A passage
Of
Time.

The Air,
Across my
Chest,
A breeze
Remorseless,
Of
Everything
But 
Him.
A searing 
Relief.

Why Does
Your Spirit
Keep me
Here.
Where
I can only 
Think
Of you.

Like A Drug,
Your 
Taste 
On my 
Mouth,
Lingers.
A source 
Of survival
That 
Dies too
Fast.

The Center,
Of this place,
Comes 
To 
Me
In my
Dreams. 
The warmth,
Only
Inside
You,
Absent 
When 
You're
Gone.

Blanket Me
With 
It,
This night.
Wrap 
Around 
Me,
Your wings,
Gentle
&
Free.

Let 
The music
I hear 
In my mind,
Only 
You
Make me
Hear,
Lull 
Me 
To
Sleep,
Once
More.

For Tomorrow,
The world
Waits.
But,
With 
You 
In
My
Dreams,
Survive
Another
Day.
My 
Angel,
&
I.