Friday, August 19, 2022

Maybe Someday--Past Lives Series--Angels, Guardians, & SoulMates Series--Recovery & Hopeful Survivors Series

Living my life 

On the bleachers,

Watching from afar 

The moments 

That passed in front of me, 

This is the life I knew.


They tell me 

Most people don't live this way,

That most see 

In simpler terms,

A life lived

Rather than observed.


It's funny 

That sensation 

Still in my chest, 

In my gut,

That startling feeling 

Of panic that hits 

Just thinking of what 

Lies underneath that armor.


Those rooms that used to 

Wait for me in my dreams, 

The sheer disgusted panic 

That waited for me there,

A place that thankfully 

Doesn't haunt me 

Like it did before.


I wondered often 

When I could reach inside of me 

And try to figure out 

What went wrong there, 

What hurt me 

In the quietly tortured

Spaces in my mind.


It's funny isn't it 

The amount of control 

This seemingly minor thing has,

A mind 

A brain 

A simple organism

That occupies so little space,

But makes up so much 

Of what I am.


I resented it 

Back then

When I was younger,

When I was new 

To This World,

And all I could think of 

Was why I had to do it 

All over again.


Why I had to come so far 

To gain so little,

A mere child 

In a body occupied by a mind 

That remembers so much, 

But could do me no good 

Until that right time had come.


That time you might be asking 

Was when the half of me 

That knew too well what waited, 

Was done simply passing the time 

Until the lowly Earthly half of me 

Could finally catch up, 

And do more than 

Be an ever present reminder 

Of how Mortal bound 

I really was.

 

I passed through my life 

As if I was bored already, 

Waiting for my Two Sides 

To become whole 

Resenting the time it took 

For the rest of the This Life 

To take shape.


Some say that those born 

Of Two Halves 

Aren't Sacred at all, 

That it's simply our brains'

Overly complicated processes 

Learning to survive 

What can't be undone.


Still others will tell you 

That it's a luxury

To know The Self in it's entirety

That only few 

Will ever know.


Either way it's a space

Inside the world 

We think we all live in, 

That takes it's toll 

On those who live there.


A price paid 

By the years of knowing 

How much the Soul remembers,

And the ever taxing 

Debt owed to the Earthly shell 

We only temporarily occupy.


We can only hope then 

That the wait 

Is worth the ride, 

The pay off 

Of experience we all endure.


So that someday 

What we all shared here 

In This Lifetime, 

Can be something we offer 

Of ourselves,

So that others won't have to endure 

The same shame 

And broken promises 

We still remember.


Is it worth it 

The pain and the suffering 

That we carry with us, 

As we all look forward 

   To our own version of someday....


I suppose it all depends 

On which day 

And which person you ask. 


I like to think 

What we are is meant to be, 

And

That we can choose 

To be be something more 

Than what we would be otherwise, 

If we had chosen to be 

On the easier Path.


I don't know 

If I'll ever be able to 

Answer that question for sure, 

But 

It's the road I go down 

Each time I cross that fork in the road, 

So that maybe someday 

No one else 

Has 

To.















































 

Wednesday, July 20, 2022

You ever wonder what folks are thinking


When our elected officials

are overturning laws that 

protect citizens' rights


And they're having to go all the way 

back to the 1960' & 70's, to do it....


Think about it....


Discrimination

Education

Interracial Marriage 

Housing

Employment

Protections & Advancements In Medicine

&

Essentially Decriminalizing Opportunity 


The Laws we have now

are a direct result of 

the Laws that came before....


It's that simple....


So you have to wonder....


Which Laws Are Next.

Thursday, May 26, 2022

If That's All It Meant-Civil Rights Are Human Rights Series/BLM Series-Hope & Survivors Series

When you say....

All Lives Matter,

I could see what you mean, 

if that's all it

meant....


When you say....

You Don't Have To March,

I wonder

if you knew 

what's it's like,

to beg, chant, & gasp,

that your life matters too....


When you say....

If You Acted Right

You'd Be Ok,

I remember trying 

to be perfect,

but the color of my skin

was never enough....


When you say....

Let It Go & We Can Heal,

I think about 

who we lost,

who won't ever be,

& I can't understand

how you think it's so simple

to forget....


When I finally say....

My Life Matters,

because I fear for me,

my sisters, my brothers,

my friends, my family,

my church, my neighbors,

& even people I may never 

get to meet someday,

simply because of 

who I am....


 When all you say....

Is

All Lives Matter,

how I could I see what you mean,

when that's not all it 

really 

meant.


I wrote this in first person. It's how I put myself in someone else's shoes, & try to understand their truth....


I hold out hope, that someday, so many of us won't have to beg, chant, & gasp, that their lives mattered, too.


✌💖✊ 


#GeorgeFloyd #RIP #RestInPower #BLM








 




 


Monday, April 25, 2022

When Wooden Stakes Aren't Your Biggest Fears--Vampire Problems Series

When your neighbors 

bust open an old violin case,

revealing a well hidden,

and well used,

Vampire Killing Kit.....


And your first thought is,

you're just happy their offspring

didn't bring home

another band instrument,

like they did last year.....


Cause you'd seriously rather 

throw yourself on a wooden stake,

than listen to nine more months

of their demon spawn, 

raising the tortured Souls 

of musicians past,

to the tune of Three Blind Mice.













Sunday, April 24, 2022

Too Far-- Secretes We Keep Series--Do Unto Others Series

Have you ever had something so special & 

important to you, that you didn't want 

to tell anyone else....

Cause it was like, saying it out loud would 

ruin it somehow....

So you just kinda kept it to yourself, 

keeping it safe from all the judgements &

bullshit....

Even though you trusted someone 

with everything else, this one thing felt 

so delicate, you were afraid it would 

be destroyed if it wandered too far away 

from you.

















 

Tuesday, April 19, 2022

Thought Of The Day--Where You'll Find Me When I'm Not On My Blog--To Each Their Own--Do Unto Others Series

Just because 
you don't understand it,
doesn't magically
give you permission
to treat me 
like shit...

I have the power
of
Rainbows
Unicorns
Dragons
Fairies
Witches
&
Ancestors
on my side.....

I promise you,
my Magic
is stronger than
yours.




Sunday, March 27, 2022

Me & You--A New Series--New Style--New Storytelling--New Presentation

What do you think happens

When I'm with you....


Do you think the world stops,

That I can't breath 

When you're in the room with me....


That 

Everything I am 

When you're not here,

Just ceases to exist because you're near....


That the air 

Inside my lungs collapses,

Disappears,

Fails to keep me alive

Because you're the only thing I can see....


My world

Ending,

My

Mind

Disappearing from where I am now,

As if what I was before you

Wasn't good enough....


My Soul 

Ejecting 

The toxins of who I used to be 

Before you came,

Do you think this all I can be

Now I know you're here....


Then you truly don't see 

What I've become,

Do you....


The heart beat

That shakes my body loose

From the rigid source of life 

I knew before,

The conscious moral compass

That guided me to you 

In the first place....


You think 

We've never been 

Until now,

That this moment of knowing you

Is new....


That 

You haven't always been,

That I haven't always known you,

Known that this would be....


This is only a part of 

What was before,

Of 

Who will be someday,

Like seconds ticking on a stop watch

That tells time in centuries....


Marking places we haven't even been yet

&

Setting reminders 

Of what will become milestones 

That highlight what we've always been....


You seem to think

There is a place in time

Where I can tell you why I knew 

This is where I was meant to be someday....


It's still not as simple as that

No matter how many lifetimes

I try to understand it

Or

Explain it to myself, 

So how can you expect me to explain it

Clearly to you....


All I know....


Is that 

We're endless,

Me 

&

You.