Storms--AZ Rains Series---Angels, Guardians, & SoulMates Sereis(AZ Rains--Wings--Roses--Black--Reflection Sereis)

The rain in my head.

That's the funny part.

I see him

wherever I am.

In my sleep

In my path

in the stars above me.

He's still there.

The sky

opens up to me

&

it lets me see him here with me

again.

So many fear it

the storms that ravage the Earth.

But what they don't know

what they don't hear

Is him.

They only see the fear

the rage.

The tearing of the sky above them.

They don't see the Life

that crawls out

from under.

From the

scrub brush at their feet.

As if

only Life they can identify

deserves to survive.

Oh.

But that's not us

is it.

We see.

We see it all.

The

sounds of the air

ripping through our sky.

The textures of the sky

as the colors change

the clouds that feed us

open their arms ound us

&

welcome us home.

This.

This is what I know.

What I live for.

What keeps me

alive.

These Storms.

Your Face.

Your Touch.

Your Breath in mine.



Free--AZ Rains Series--Angels, Guardians, & SoulMates Series

Dance in the rain with me.

Meet outside my door.

Splash in the puddles 

tell me I'm the only one.

Race me to the edge.

Show me the way.

Chase me like you do.

Feel me standing here

close to you.

They way I do you.

Let me feel your body heat

close to mine.

Don't let me shiver

or feel the cold.

Show me how to be free.



Always--AZ Rains--Angles, Gaurdians, & SoulMates Series---Recovery/Addiction/Mental Health/Chronic Illness---Loss/Grief/OTRB---Hope & Survivors Series

This.

This is what

has become of you.

A tiny grain of Truth.

A tiny

shred

of Hope.

Of memory.

I don't want to see you

this way.

A far away look

a glance over my shoulder.

A distance

not

traveled anymore.

I do see you still.

In this Mirror

of translucence.

I see you

your mouth

as you never speak to me.

Your eyes

as you never look away from me.

You face

as you tilt your head

just right

& you see me too clearly.

I hope I never forget you.

My tiny grain of Truth.

My Sanctuary.

My

Sanctum

Sanctorum.

My

reason for the Rain.

I look back

&

I recall the desperate need for you

&

I wonder

if this feeling now

is the right one

the ability to live without you.

Or if it is

wrong

to miss the unfiltered high

I knew when all I had was you.

To visit that Time

to Love you as I do

this shall remain the same.

But to crave you.

To withdrawal so violently

without you in me.

Maybe this

is one of those things

that shall also pass.

Is it wrong

to miss what I no longer need.

Or is wrong

that I no longer need you.

I'm not sure.

I may never be.

But I know

that what I have with you

is still real.

Still pure.

Then or now.

In my system 

as my only way to breath.

Or my precious

Memories.

I know

I will

always

have

you.


My Past
as solidly held
in my hand
as the days you were here.
No Separation of Time
or of Place
will ever
truly
take
me
away from
you.



A Little While--Reflection / Black Series----Warriors--Recovery--Hope & Survivors

The Duel

I rarely

if

ever

name the things

I'm about to say.

I have

only

a well know presence

in my Mind's Eye

that I know

will pursue me

until

I can be rid of him

&

put him here

on paper.

But this.

This One is different

It's who I

Really Am.

&

It is not

so easily persuaded

to

leave.

As I sit here

I know

that

what I say

what I know

about me

about what

I Really Am.

Is not something

I can

take back.

Something

that can be

undone

unsaid.

Untrue.

So

why do I

say it.

Why try.

Why pursue

something that I know

will only

be

a part of me

no matter

what I do.

Whether I admit

it to you.

Or I take it

with me

as I go on

with who

I've always

really

been.

I don't know.

Maybe

to feel that

no matter

what

we are.

No matter

who we are

not who

we've become.

Will

still be able

to enter the Light.

Be able to

feel

the warmth.

&

not

have to feel

the shame.

Even for

a

little

while.



How We Move--Relection/ Black Series----Musicians--Artists--Writers--Poets--Actors--Hope & Survivors

Heights.

The

undefinable

unfathomable depths.

They used to

lay before

me.

Lay just beneath

me

A distance

in the depths

of my hated

fears.

And

as I look beyond

them

now.

And

I see

the depths

of my own

inability

to fathom

myself.

My own

inability to

resist

the easy call

of weakness.

Of

unforgiveness.

Of simple

fear

of failure.

That

one moment

in Time

where all things

join

together

come towards you

&

you know

it's for you to decide.

For you

to forsake your own

Will.

And simply

Be.

Whatever that my

be.

Oh

to simply be.

To understand that

all Life

all

Death.

All

things.

Are never really

in our control

at

all.

That

we are only

translucent....

things.

Transparent

&

sheer.

A

syphon

for all things

we can

never

truly

understand.

And't

it's in those

Moments.

In those seconds

that

tick by.

We see.

We finally....

see.

That this Life

Isn't

a

Blessing

or

a

Curse.

It's

merely

an Illusion.

A

Myth in the

making.

What

Parts we play.

What

voices we carry.

What

story we

someday

tell.

Is

simply

the foreshadowed

end.

How....

Ah.

How.

Now

how we tell

our

Story.

This.

This is what

we all wait for.

The climatic

end.

The crescendoed

orchestrated

vibration

that runs it's course

through

our

Lives.

This

is what I

now

hear.

The

beautiful

strings

on which

all life

is

echoed.

And

I see now

that

no matter

the Song

It is

how

we move

to that

silent

music

Is all

that

really

mattered.



You--Reflection / Black Series

The Surface

underneath.

This.

This is where

I Live.

The locals

who dwell

here.

They think

they know me.

Have seen me.

Think

 this entitles them

to my

Name.

Ah

but they don't

know.

Don't understand

that

in this Place

a Story

only grows.

A Masquerade

of sorts.

A sustained

wound.

A Healing

that which

can never

be found.

This.

This is what

keeps me

here.

This break

in the fault line

this

caress

of my Soul.

a feathers

touch.

That

those sweet

echoing

moments.

Are

really of

you....

So

I dwell here

you see.

A

symphony

of 

Delusions.

A

Catastrophe

of proportions

only

 you & I

can

see.

The calling
of your
name.
The unending
Song
of
sweet
Remorse.
Your gentle
touch.
Your breath
on
my face.


These reminders
of
you.
These
Moments.
Stolen.
Encased in
an
amber & crimson
tide.
Those colors
that
will always
be of
you.


These things
keep me
here.
Enshrined.
A
Sacrifice
to
Once
Was.
My only
Breath.
My only
Life.


You.




   



His Redemption--Protector/Redemption--Part 2--Reflection / Black Series------Black Series--The Unified Spirit Of AZ Rains--Wings--Roses Series----Reflection Series--A New Series Within Black Series

All He Is

She asks.

A Vision of Hope.

A lingering putrid smell

in her Heart

as she remembers a Time

where he once was

& she was no more.

Only.

He says this.

As if it must be

Truth.

As if

all he sees

are the scars that

cross his face

when he remembers

who I am.

You see

he knows me

not

from this Place.

In the mists

of

Memory.

But

from a Moment

so long ago

I refuse to see it

clearly.

To see me

when I can't

see him.

He knows me

aches

in my Soul.

Cramps

that refuse to

heal.

Heart beats

that refuse to surface.

If only

for a little while.

Then.

It is then

that I realize.

That I know

who I am.

That I see this

unexpected

reflection of me.

In a window.

In a Crystal

I wear near my Heart

that seems to beat

for it.

As if

on it's own

even my body

betrays me.

Refuses to function

without you near.

It's then I see.

The You

Reflected

In

Me.

 



My Only Way Home--Black Series

The Moon Light

struck his Soul just right.

The refection

blinding me to what

I can't see anyway.

The Street Lamps

they flicker

a reminder of when

you used to be.

When you were

only you.

When you

didn't carry me

with you

too.

The Creatures Above Us

do you hear them.

They call for you

their leader

mentor

friend.

The Stone Building

in front of us

always a sign

a road map

a beacon.

Leading us here

where you'll always

be.

Your Wings

wrapped around you

almost lucid

transform

you.

Those Symbols

of inequity

that wrap my mind

around

you.

Bring Me Here

once again

you say.

As if you think

it's me

&

not you

that brings us

here.

A warped sense

of

Time

&

what he does

to me

when I'm

with

you..

Oh

but you say.

It is

you.

The Guardians

that Save us

bring you here

to me.

Because they

know

it's the only way

I find myself

in this

Darkness.

Because

they know

you're my only

way

Home.





In The Key Of You--Black Series--Musicians--Eternal Love--Paranormal

Crimson Tides

Flow in tune

A Melody

Of You.

Skies Above Me

Sing 

Your Praises

Waves

Of Reds

& Blues.

Shore Lines

Soak up the Life

You give 

Them

Flowing

It back into

You.

All That Surrounds

Me now

Sing your 

Praises

A constant

Melody

All spoken

In the 

Key

Of 

You.

Her Protector--Protector/Redemption Part 1--Reflection / Black Series-----Reflection Series--A Series Within A Series

Above A Tortured Sky

Wings of a Creature 

Circle by.

A Soul

Unlike the rest

He filters through

Retreating rarely

To his

Nest.

Looking Down

Toward 

All he Guards

Faith 

In what he

Hopes to see

A Vision 

In white

Her Protector

Is 

All

He'll ever

Be.

Home--Black Series

The Blood Red Moon

Sits 

In a crimson 

Sky.

Because 

He 

Reminds me 

Of you.

The Starless

Cloudless 

Sky

Sparkles 

Above me.

Only 

Because 

Of 

You.

The Light 

Shines Eternal

In your 

Eyes.

A guiding 

Beacon.

Showing me

The way

Home.

Forever
With you.