Blessings--It's All In How You See It--To The Ones I Wrote This For(You Know Why)--Hope&Survivors--CareGivers--Recovery--Mental Illness--Special Needs

To spend her nights 

Awake 

Exhausted with remorse & shame

Never sure 

That she has or will or can

Ever
Do enough.

To be so desperately afraid

To close her eyes

That the only one who should matter now

Will not wake up in the morning
Because she selfishly slept.

To know only a room away

Is the only one before this one

That she ever really loved

Is lying there pondering ending her own existence.

To know only a few miles away

The only one she ever respected before this one

Broke all the rules she ever cared about

& Walked away bent seemingly beyond repair.

To dream a sleep deprivated moment

Each time she blinked & closed her eyes

Aware that each night

Would bring only this.....

Then 

To walk outside those few stolen moments

Look into the stars

& Know the world is bigger than she is

& This too shall pass.

To wake up decades later

Knowing it was for a reason

& Looking back it was worth it

& They all survived.

This is the blessing so many wait for

And so she stands

Not alone

But with the beauty of the Universe

With her
Declaring her Strength
Her Faith
Her Love.